Day 3 - Committed

I feel very committed to my goal of 30 days today... Considering I am giving up sleep to type this!
I also feel as though the full moon has driven everyone insane... Including myself.
This also leads me to feel committed.

And this is officially the very worst blog I have ever written! Aannndd good night!


xxxxx - S

Day 2 - Jones Knows Best

So in my last blog I said that I couldn't see myself speaking just about myself... Well I am going to contradict myself! (and hey lets be honest with ourselves... blogs are were made for people to speak about themselves)

Today was a strange day.
I had a day off and decided to watch Bridget Jones...
Oh Bridget... she really got it right didn't she?
She saw the bad guy and went for the good guy.
Shouldn't it be that simple?

Well today I fell like Bridget Jones on a bad day...
My butt and my thighs did not fit the shorts I put on this morning, so I decided to changed into a pair of pants instead to cover up my extremely white sausages and found that these once baggy jeans are now struggling to contain my lower half.
Plus, I woke up with a massive headache wondering why I am single.

When someone obviously cares for you why is it not always as simple as Bridget Jones?
Why can't us girls make things work with that guy who loves our muffin top love handles and who thinks we are cute when we say outlandish things?
But no, sadly we are not always as reasonable as Bridget and sometimes we simply keep our eyes looking for someone or something bigger and grander... We keep looking for perfect.

Today I pledge to be happy with what I've got!

Pizza

Beer

& Ice cream!!

30 Day Challenge - Day 1 (Love and Hate)

I am going to start a 30 day challenge where I attempt to blog for 30 days straight. Like a lot of people I am starting this because I had a friend who did it because they were reading a friends blog who was doing it. It is a trend yes? Yes that is right! I am doing this because of lately my life has changed a bit and I find other then my lovely job and switching homes I don't have much to do with my extra time.

So the 30 day challenge begins! (Though I have already had this blog I am just starting it back up :p)

So my friend started with one thing she hated about herself and then one thing she loved about herself which is lovely and I love to read :) but I can't find myself to write about purely my own qualities so I am going to write about my life instead.

Lets start with something I both Love and Hate about my life.

As we all probably know we probably argue with the person we love most in this world more then anyone else, so this is not such a crazy thought.

I love that I have been able to live in two different countries and I have amazing friends and family who live on opposite sides of the globe! I never thought I could have been so blessed to have such amazing friends!! And a family who loves and supports me as well as mine do.

But... (and here comes the Hate part) One thing that troubles me the most in my life is that no matter where I am in the entire world, I am always missing someone. I will never have everyone I love with me ever again.

This entree is dedicated to my lovely friend Vikki! Who inspired me to start writing on my blog again all the way from England!

The Audition!

As a child and growing up I have always been a very soft spoken person.

While going to public school I was attracted to very genuine outgoing people with BIG personalities! Also at the age of three although I had a soft spoken attitude I would jump at any chance I got to get on stage!

I think these are just some of the reasons I feel so at home within the Theatre community.

Since starting my second semester of College I have gotten more and more involved within the Theatre community at my college and I love it! It seems that a Theatre person is you friend at Hello! Everyone has huge personalities and they are all so lovely to each other... Of course there is always conflict whenever people get together, but they are so welcoming to new comers!

This past week my friends who are involved in theatre convinced me to go to an audition. I was a bit skeptical... I have a hard time believing that I am capable of doing any of this stuff... But for the fun of it, I got a monologue practiced and I went to the audition in the state of mind that I was just going to have fun! I walked in with a big smile and no nerves performed my piece and walked away with my head held high.

The next day I looked on the call back list and I was blown away to see my name there twice!

Now suddenly filled with ideas os possibilities, I was scared! My stomach twisted into knots and now I wanted it! I wanted it badly and I tried to convince myself otherwise but there was nothing I could do... I had a taste and now I wanted the whole cake!

There was an acting and dancing call back... Dancing in HEELS!

So I dressed as I was told to and brought a pair of heals I could really dance in...

Granted I have not danced like this in years... I was a bit rusty...

I kept up fairly well but it was FAST!

There were legs flying in the air! and hair flipping every possible direction!

I pushed myself as hard as I could trying to get the dance down...

and after there was a number of different readings...

There were some down right amazing dancers and some intense scenes played out by the fellow students around me...

It was clear I was not one of the elite... but at least I was in the game!

I figured I was not going to get any part... though when I went to see the Cast list and my name wasn't there I was still a tiny bit disappointed.

But the most important part is that my passion has been re-ignited!

I have a lot of work to do but I want to do it!

I am not doing this to make a living to raise a family out of this... But I am doing this because I love it! I love being near it around it in it! Having any part of it simply makes my heart soar!

That has to count for something right? Even if it isn't the fastest way to get money in my pocket. :)

Dream Land!

So ever since college has started I have had a number of friends who have all entered Philosophy courses and have gotten really into it! They especially seem to love pondering on the idea of “Is the life we are living really a dream?” How do we know what we think is real really isn't reality at all? It seems to come up a lot in conversation, it is almost a joke we bring up whenever we are being too serious and philosophical... "How do you know this isn't just a dream we are having?"
While this came up early today I was laughing because I was quite bored and I started to ask myself "Why would I dream up something like this?!" As I asked this question I was stopped short as a man with long black hair a black suit and a massive, super thick, jet black, perfectly twirled mustache walked by! To say the least, I now take this theory a bit more seriously.

xxxx
Sarah Emily

You're all washed up kiddo!

Within the last couple months I officially survived my first semester of college, visited my parents, had just about 1 second to breath, and now I am back in school and rushed into yet another busy semester.

I decided my roommates old room had a better window then my room and got more air so the decision was made that after she moved out I would move in.

Who knew moving a couple of feet was so difficult! It has taken much longer then originally anticipated... to say the least! At the moment my belongings look like a trail leading from one room to the next and then sporadically sprinkled throughout the living and kitchen area. Tonight was just a good night to stay at home and work on some school work and getting all moved in! It is warm inside and cold and rainy outside. Candles, music, and the sound of rain and rolling thunder keeping my company. So relaxed... I got a lot moved from my old room to the new room and I decided to take a shower. So I turn on the water to warm up and I go into the other room to get my towel. The I remember that I had left the windows slightly cracked from a couple days before when it was sunny and clear. I hurry and rush over to the window to find that water has overflowed the window sill and was starting to seep into the carpet I rushed and get a whole bunch of paper towels. I struggled for a good while closing the windows as much as I could and a half of a roll of paper towels later I signed and grabbed my towel. I walked into the bathroom really looking forward to a nice hot shower to relax in and as i step into the bathroom I realize that I am standing in water... Somehow my new shower is leaking all over the floor and I have no idea why or how! I shut the water off use my only two towel to soak up the majority of the water and head to bed... no shower... but i have gotten wet enough for tonight. My towels will be hanging to dry and hopefully I'll get to shower in my old shower in the morning and have a towel to dry off with. Or else I will just have to (as the black eyed peas say it...) shake it like a polaroid picture. Have a good night everyone!

xxxx- Sarah Emily

Finals Week

Finals week is stressful enough for any college student... when you have to add christmas shopping that needs to be finished that weekend when you get on a plane to different country things get even more rushed and intense.

So after my final in Theatre I decided I had enough time to do some christmas shopping before I went home to clean, write a paper, and study for my other finals. I drove to the store straight after I got out of my class. When I got to the store I started to notice a lot of women giving me strange looks... Some gave me the "Are you insane..." look... others gave me the "Wow... you are retarded" and others just gave me over enthusiastic smiles. It was strange... and while trying on shoes I looked at myself in a full length mirror... That is when I realized that my Princess Leia buns where still in place! I had totally forgotten to take them out after my final in theatre that was a play based off of Star Wars. I let out a little giggle and then held my bun-ed head high during the rest of my shopping smiling at everyone who noticed! 

I think I enjoyed pretending to be Princess Leia more then I really should have! :)

Good Luck to every student taking tests finals and exams! 

xxxx Sarah Emily